One of my bestest friends died today and I feel bad bc I didn't see him.

[SienaJackson]

  My friend died today

Do u guys remember how I talked about a friend of mine name Roy who helped me out alot w/ $$$ when I needed important stuff? And how ppl hate me in town for that very reason? Well, I'm not exactly sure when he died but he did, just a few days ago...and I feel so increadbly rotten for nt getting over to see him because since my mom started work in Feb. I have taken over house "wife" duties (LOL) but it kindsof leaves me not getting out, I'm outta the loop, and I feel SO bad bc I promised him a Christmas present and didn't get it to him, didn't get to say goodbye or anything, didn't see him since b4 Christmas!!! I am horrible, I ought to be run thru on Sting and fed to a Rancor!! I am so mad at myself, I'm not able to get out, it makes me feel like what if I'd gone and see him inbetween times? Whjat if I'd callled?? But all this is new and I am still getting used to the routine of doing all this...I tend to space off little stuff, I am th WORST now!! I won't get to the good place, only the hot place, now I can be really known as trouble around my town, I need to go to either Middle Earth or Neverland, and be w/ Michael and Frodo! Just wanted to update and get it out, guess I'm in the right place. THere supposed to be a funeral tomorrow but I can't go, and they wouldn't want me anyway I don't thing, everyone hates me for being w/ him even if we didn't do "that".

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I hate to hear about your friend. Some of my thoughts are on "What Are You Think" topic.

[Beren One-Hand]

Sorry to hear of the death of your friend, Sienna.  Try not to be too hard on yourself.  Remember the good times.  Your friend was obviously a true friend, and would forgive you (if that was necessary).

[MissyDog]

I agree, you really shouldnt be too hard on yourself.

There is no way you could have known this would happen, and although you didnt get to see your friend as soon as you would have liked to before the end, I'm sure he knows that you were thinking of him and were trying your best to juggle your busy lifestyle and try to have a social life as well.

You just have to try to look at things from a more positive point of view so that you dont drag yourself down that road of depression and blaming yourself for things that couldnt have been helped.